ilme-riyazi ke sawalon ki tarah tha

Beauty of internet is that you meet people with talents all the time! I recently bumped Rida's poetry on blogs. I found following very interesting.

خوابوں کی طرح تھا نہ خیالوں کی طرح تھا

وہ علمِ ریاضی کے سوالوں کی طرح تھا

اُلجھا ہوا اتنا کہ کبھی کُھل نہیں پایا

سُلجھا ہوا ایسا کہ مثالوں کی طرح تھا

(He was neither like dreams nor like thoughts
He was like equations of maths
complicated as so - hard to solve
complete as so - ideal to cite)
 
You can read her blog here

127 hours (and others)

On this blog I frequently comment on "zara hat ke" movies (off beat/art movies) as I believe they truly portray Zindagi Ki Diary!

I went to see new Hollywood flick "127 hours". It is a true story (book = Between a Rock and a Hard Place) of an avid but little careless (la-ubali) hiker. Incident happened in April 2003 in mountains of Utah when his right arm get stuck/crush between 2 rocks. In next 127 hours while fighting to save his life with one packet of snack and only 400 ml of water he re-examines his life. Near death his biggest regret is ignoring his loved ones on small matters like not returning his mom phone calls, not telling anyone where he is going, fighting with his girlfriend, escaping his sister's wedding. Also he cherish small moments he spent with his family and friends. It gives us message that - at the end nothing matters except moments spend with loved ones! On side note this movie is produced by famous British director Donny Boyle of Slumdog Millionaire fame. And so music is by AR Rehman.   (Trailer here)

OTHERS:

1. If you are still young (in heart) and like light romantic comedy - don't miss "love and other drugs". Full paisa wasool film. (Caution - huge sexual content/nudity). (Trailere here)

2. Another comedy "Due Date" is also great! Just fun! Robert Downey Jr. is probably the most sexiest actor in Hollywood right now! (Trailer here)

3. Bollywood's "Guzarish" is a little off beat movie - but famous director Sanjay Leela Bhansali failed to create climax and emotional drama associated with issue of euthanasia. Hirthik Roshan is a bad pick for this movie. He failed miserably. Shah Rukh would have done much better. But Ashwariya Rai is prettier than before and did awesome acting. She looks so graceful and its worth to spend money because of her. (Trailer here)

Najmul Hasan

Najmul Hasan mere paros ki 'building' main rehta tha. Uska taaluq Bangladesh se tha. Main ne Chicago main pehli dafa gaari kharidi to jese mujhe par mil gaye. Main har sham 'Michigan Lake' ki drive pe nikalta. Koi saath aaye na aaye Najmul Hasan mere saath ho leta. Dhimi tabiyat ka aadmi tha. Hum kehte - ya saala jawani main hi buddha ho gaya hai. Jub Najmul Hasan ne bhi gaari kharidi to sab ne sir pakar liye. Hum kehte - ise kisi din slow driving kerne pe ticket mile ga. Mere jub 2/4 accident huwe to mujhe samjhata ke - tezraftari se tumhari hi nahi bulke dusroN ki jaanoN ko bhi khatra hota hai. Gaari ahtiyat se chalaya karo...main uski suni ansuni ker deta.

Chicago chorne ke kuch arse baad aik roz - New York ki parhioN main - aik 'turn' lete huwe meri gaari ulat gai. Gaari ka haal dekh ker koi ye nahi keh sakta tha ke jaan bachi ho gi. Magar Allah ki qasam - aik kharash tuk na aai. Us din Najmul Hasan bohat yaad aaya jo hur 'turn' pe apne makhsoos bengali lehje main kehta - 'seeloww'!

Zindagi chalti rahi. Sab dost idhar udhar ho gaye. Kuch saalon pehle pata chala Najmul Hasan Arkansas ke kisi bohat hi chote town main reh raha hai. Hum ne kaha - wahin theek hai!

Peechle hafte mujh pe ye khabar kisi bijli se kum na thi ke - saal pehle Najmul Hasan ka aik chote se signal pe accident ho gaya. Magar aesa bhayanak accident ke Najmul Hasan ki aik taang kaatni pari. "Severe intracranial bleed" ki wajah se mahinoN hospital aur Rehab main raha. Uski biwi use phir Bangladesh le gai hai jahan physical therapy hoti hai magar saari zindagi kaam kaaj kerne se maazoor ho gaya hai.

Ye Zindagi saali bari harami hai. Jo is ki toqeer kare, aksar use hi zillat ka tauq pehna deti hai.

P Power!

(From one woman)

If woman knows how to hang between man's leg - man will give-up 'anything' for her - kids, career, wife, family, hobby - you name it!

Insaan bara kamina hai!

Insaan bara kamina hai!

Main poora din par ke sota raha. Shaam 'eid milan' party main khush-gupiaN kerta raha aur raat ko mehfil-musiqi main saroor ke maze lotta raha.

'Aankh tub khuli' jub Amma ne dusre din poocha: "Beta! kul tumhare Abbu ki barsi thi - umeed hai tum ne sadqa de ker nafal ki do namzain parh li hongi"!

Mere baap ko mare abhi 7 baras bhi nahi huwe magar unki yaad duniya-daari ke meloN aur jameloN main kahiN aese mehv ho ker reh gai ke main unhe bhool hi gaya. Insaan bara kamina hai. Apne baap ko bhi bhul jaata hai!

(I regret it more than anything as I failed to convey an important lesson of relationship to my own kids).

Parenthood

People who experience parenthood are different than who never experienced it. It change a person forever and I think it is one of the most essential experience to attain in life.

Why Amitabh become an Indian icon

Following is not my observation. I read it somewhere (I wish I had remember). I think this is a very important observation about pivot role of cinema in modern societies.

After 2 wars with Pakistan India was passing through a very rough state of affairs in early and mid 1970s. Poverty was at peak, population was exploding, people were literally living on streets, alcoholism and prostitution was at rampage, basic necessities of life were counted as luxury and corruption was way of life. For poor men cinema was the only cheap entertainment but it was all glossy with romance. Amitabh came on screen as a rebellious young angry man who defies all norms of society and fight against injustice. His movies Zanjeer, Sholay, Deewar, Don etc were prime examples. Indian society instantly identified its hidden frustration  on cinema screen. They found Amitabh as reflection of their fantasies. His long stature, deep voice and expressive angry face was in perfect coordination with inner desires of people.

Mid life crisis

What destroyed our marriage was mid life crisis. Exatly the day he turned 48, he bought new BMW. Few days later he bought red sofa in house. He went for hair transplant. But I didn't expect that he will divorce me! We were raising 4 kids together like brady bunch. He found a young girlfriend and became a sugar daddy. I was devastated. He sticked around for couple of years visiting kids but than vanished completely. He start dressing more like Elvis and it was apparent that he is working hard to enjoy life. I went  into depression hitted with couple of bad accidents under influence of all crazy anti psychotics. It was a hard time. Eventually kids grew out and moved on their life. I learned to live my life finding hobbies of dancing and knitting. I tried to date 2/3 times but found same shade in those men. 16 years passed by....I didn't see my ex ever in those years.

And yesterday suddenly we bumped in one community fair. I didn't recognised in first glance. He was bald again. He appeared very old. Tons of wrinkles on face. He was walking with a cane. I guess he developed bad hip. I called his name. He looked at me. Tears came in his eyes. He put hands on my shoulder. He tried to say something but than walk off without words. He seems very alone. I wish he would have talked to me. I wanted to tell him that I still value our 10 years of marriage more than anything but I guess words have lost meanings. I came back to a lonely house.

So watch yourself! and don't let any young chick at strip club or craiglist plunge you into deep ditch of mid life crisis. It kills people and their loved ones from inside.

15 baras

Main 'Markham' main rehti thi. Woh 'Brampton' main rehta tha. Main 2 jobs kerne ke baad TTC main dhakke kha ker us ke ghar jaati. Uske bartan dhoti, us ke kupre saaf kerti, khana banati. Meri saari zindagi us ke gird ghumti. Main us ke 'bills' bhi 'pay' ker deti - bulke uski 'fees' pay kerne ke liye amma ke diye kai zewar bhi bech diye. Amma ne lakh samjahaya. Abbu ne bhi kaha: "beta! tum dono ka mazhab alag hai, tum dono ki shadi bohat aage nahi jaaye gi". Magar main ishq main gum satwain aasman pe thi. Sab galat the - bus meri mohabbat theek thi.

Aur phir aik din woh aik dum se gaaib ho gaya. Zameen nigal gayi ya asmaan kha gaya. Khuch dinoN baad pata laga us ne Pakistan ja ker apni cousin se shaadi racha li. Main baawli si ho gi. Aik roz backpack le ker ghar se nikal gai. VIA Rail main beth gai. Train chalti rahi. Vancouver paunch gai magar dil wahiN Toronto main reh gaya.

15 baras ho gaye magar ab tuk us 'shock' se bahir nahi aayi. Ab bhi Toronto ka naam sun ker dar jaati hun. Tum jaante ho 15 baras aik aik pal kisi ki yaad se bhagna kiya hota hai. Tum mard ho. Tum kiya jaano tum mardoN ki bewafaii kese aurat ko botal main jin ki tarah band ker deti hai.

15 saal! uf khudaya! ab to aaine main apna chehra dekhne se bhi dar lagta hai....aik aik shikan pe uska naam likha hai.

Lambi Judai - Reshma

I love flute in this song. What a classic of Reshma!

Tute zamaane tere haat nigore

jin se dilon ke tu ne sheeshe tore
Hijr ki oonchi deewar banaii
Haye lambi judaii lambi judaii